Hey cherries,
How are you all?
I’m feeling bloggish just now. It’s been a loooooooong day. Suddently I feel like I’m working at this microscopic level (compared to what I’m used to), and it still feels like it takes forever to get anything done. I talked to my Dad for a long time last night. Sometimes I forget how long he worked here for. It’s amazing how similar our experiences and emotions about our work are. He said to focus small…that little successes are really important. I think I’m in that lull patch, where I can’t sit in a snug little bubble of ‘just got here, still working things out’, but I really still am ‘still working things out…whilst feeling high pressure to deliver’.
Today I had to take an ojek (motorbike taxi) to a village out in the Kerinci Valley, to ease the concerns of the NGO Network ‘Chairman’ who had misunderstood why I was meeting another NGO in the group. I felt so much better when I had spent half an hour in his living room having discussed all his concerns (there’s plenty of politics between local NGOs trying to work together here – just a microcosm of us silly old BINGOs sometimes struggling to cooperate constructively), and found a solution. Us human beings are just like robins I feel… fiercely territorial and terrified of losing control, or being forgotten. I definitely have robin tendencies… but I strive towards being more like a meerkat… what we need is for the NGOs to behave like a family of meerkats, each taking turns to look out for threats, while the others get on with doing other useful things (like campaigning against illegal activities or working with communities on forest protection). Hmmm, the more I think about it, the more I think I need a really great pic of a meerkat family as a visual aid – can anyone help?
What I have really learned in the last few days and weeks (I guess I knew it before, but it’s come home more recently) is that sending out distress calls, or just asking for help can make me feel so much stronger. Sometimes I feel small and useless that I can’t do everything myself. Then I kick myself, because I feel so much more effective and satisfied when I can join forces with others. Librans are meant to be diplomatic and balance things (or do they just swing from one end of the scales to the other – as per my love life ;o) Sometimes I think we have a tendency to try to balance too much, and forget that the Libran scales are metaphorical, and if I want to have more arms on the scales and join forces with others to balance things… well, that sounds like a much more friendly plan with more scope for a good time.
Clearly I’m rambling here. But this is a blog, and so I can be self-indulgent, no?
Next thing is to say thank you, so much, one and all, for being such supportive cherries and listening to my rambles or sending lovely messages. I love you and miss you all.
Looking forward to speaking soon, and reading all your posts…
A few suggested activities this week:
- Smell a scented English rose
- Take a puppy for a walk (haha, yes Lisa, that ones for you… though I would love to see some pics of group cherry tree Noss walking
- Eat Haagen Daaz pralines & cream
- Back up your computer (mine’s playing silly buggers at the moment)
- Book a holiday!
Zo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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